Zhang Miaoer bent his head and shook the key string in his hand as a bell. Listening to the noise, it seemed that he was indifferent to everything around him.
Suddenly, she stopped, still with her head down, but she felt a feeling of being unable to get along.
She wanted to look up, but she didn’t want to look up and down, just looking at the man in front with his feet bent there.
Xie Cunguan looked at her quietly and smartly, and her clothes were wide, which concealed her thinness rather than highlighted her thinness. He saw that she kept her head down and the key chain was not dumped, but her fingers twisted and twisted and I didn’t know what she wanted to twist from her face.
"Don’t want to talk to me?" Xie Cunguan felt sobbed in his heart.
Small head didn’t lift but shook his head.
"What’s the matter with that?" Xie Cunguan is a little strange.
The face slowly lifted up. Although it was a little dark, I saw a face of tears when I was close. "Because I cried, I don’t want to show it to you!" " The sound is also rustling with a sob, and Xie Cunguan will never be able to speak again. He couldn’t help but want to hug this thin body in the cup in the previous step, but the thin and handsome figure took two steps back sharply and avoided them, so they stopped talking there.
"When will you come?" Finally, Zhang Miaoer stopped choking, wiping his tears and asked in a blocked voice.
"Around five o’ clock! I want to come and wait for you before school! " Xie Cunguan answered honestly.
"Ah?" Zhang Miaoer gently exhaled, "Didn’t you eat?"
"Want to wait for you to eat together …" Xie Cunguan nods.
See Zhang Miaoer will carry the sack as a big bag from behind to the front, then reach in and listen to it. After a while, he will take out a lunch box and hand it over. "This is for you to eat …"
Xie Cun officer took it and played the lunch box, but there were several packages and some warmth inside.
"This is?" He asked strangely.
"I am early tomorrow!" Zhang Miaoer light way
"Let me eat at the door? Don’t invite me in? " Xie Cunguan looked at the poor little face with an inquiring look, saying that Zhang Miaoer stopped talking and took out the key door. Both of them went in the door together. Xie Cunguan was really hungry, but he had put a bag in his mouth before going in and sat down. When he entered the courtyard, he choked a little. He quickly said, "Water!" Zhang Miaoer the baggage and take the journey "go to the kitchen …" Led him into the kitchen, poured a glass of water from thermos flask and handed it to Xie Cun Road "It’s not hot to drink …"
It’s really not hot for Xie Cunguan to take a sip, but it’s almost certain that it was boiled a few days ago.
There is a pure water heater in the kitchen, but the bucket has long been dry and dusty. I remember that the next time I came, it seemed to be a pure water machine to boil water.
"Why don’t you purify water?" He asked strangely.
"The machine is broken … I’m too lazy to talk!" Look, he’s all right. Zhang Miaoer’s eyes will drift to one side.
"Oh?" Xie Cunguan felt silent for a while. He finally looked up at the little face covered with makeup and got up the courage to ask, "What’s wrong with you?"
"Ah?" Zhang Miao son seems to be one leng obviously didn’t reflect it at the moment and then react face expression a little changed "how do you know? Who told you! "
"It’s your cousin!" Xie Cunguan stared at her for a moment. "He called me today, had a fight and told me that you were terminally ill! Is it true? "
Zhang Miaoer listened to Xie Cun Mandarin and stamped his foot bitterly. "It’s so eventful! Don’t listen to me … lie to me! " Tears welled up in her eyes before her voice fell.
Xie Cunguan didn’t talk because he looked at her and stamped her feet to lose his temper.
Zhang Miaoer finally calmed down and looked at him with a layer of water vapor. "Is that why you came?" Actually, it’s unnecessary. I don’t deserve your sympathy! There’s nothing for us to come here, is there? Besides, you should hate me when I promised to protect you and turned you out. Why did you come to see me as soon as you heard that I was terminally ill? Don’t you think it’s not enough to hurt you once? Come here to find a smoke? "
Xie Cunguan regarded her as cold. "I want to know what’s wrong with you?"
"You don’t want to know!"
"I wonder what’s wrong with you?"
"I have what disease tube you what matter? You are nothing to me! "
"I wonder what’s wrong with you?"
"Are you tired of you? Who are you? Do you want to know that I have to tell you? "
"I wonder what’s wrong with you?"
"What are you doing here? Is it to comfort me or to hurt me? "
"I wonder what’s wrong with you?"
Zhang Miaoer finally looked at the obstinate boy in silence. Her eyes were so insistent that she couldn’t speak any more. She avoided his eyes and found a stool in the room and sat down slowly.
"Do you really want to know?" There was an indescribable sadness in her eyes. All the pretending strength, indifference and 2B disappeared at this moment. She finally revealed her hidden feelings, which are two words: sadness! At this time, Xie Cunguan saw a pair of sad eyes, a pair of beautiful scissors eyes in the literati’s speech, but Xie Cunguan saw the word sad and made him suddenly feel distressed to the extreme.
"AIDS! I have AIDS! " There are holes in Zhang Miaoer’s voice besides sadness.
Xie Cunguan froze. This is an answer that he couldn’t think of! Before he came, he thought of hematologic cancer, bone cancer and all the terminal diseases he could know, but he never thought it was the answer.
"Are you satisfied now? You exposed my scar! Are you satisfied now? " Zhang Miaoer’s eyes slowly filled with tears, but they didn’t flow again, just like that.
However, this kind of saving without flowing only highlights her sadness, which has been hurt to the extreme
"This is why you don’t let everyone touch you? Is that why you refuse me to pursue you? " Xie inch officer asked lightly.
Zhang Miao son nodded "yes! Yes! Now that you know all about it, aren’t you leaving? But … "She looked him in the eye." Please don’t tell anyone after you go out that I don’t want to live in a hospital and die in the smell of Lysol, okay? "
"Go?" Xie Cun officer looked at Zhang Miaoer’s eyes and said, "Why should I go? I finally got up the courage to come to you and why should I leave? "
"You?" Zhang Miaoer looked at him with an incredible look in his eyes. "Do you know that I am still sick with this dirty disease?"
"I don’t know what caused you to get this disease, but I think others may be called dirty diseases, but I don’t believe it is dirty when you get this disease!" Xie Cunguan looked at her eyes firmly. "So … I thought … maybe you’d like to tell me something!"
Zhang Miaoer looked at his expression and looked at his eyes. Finally, the stubborn girl bowed her head and covered her face with her hands. She finally cried bitterly. "What? What, my relatives don’t believe me, but you can believe me? " There was an indescribable feeling of frustration in the crying and questioning, which made Xie Cunguan feel a burst of pain and sadness.
Chapter VI Zhang Miaoer’s Story
"It was my second day when I was suddenly awakened in the middle of the night. I walked out of my room and my parents were quarreling in the living room! They quarreled so much. I’ve never seen him arguing so much. Then my father started to slap my mother with an army belt … I was scared! My mother didn’t cry or shout, but her eyes were terrible and she just stared at my father … I knew I could clearly know that I didn’t have a home and I couldn’t have a complete home anymore! " Zhang Miaoer was sitting on a stool and her body was shaking gently. Obviously, things had a huge impact on her mind at that time. "Is it strange? I was only the second day, but when I looked at my mother’s eyes, I suddenly knew the result … "